Product Review: Eat keenwa krunch

         

About a month ago I saw Eat Keenwa Krunch mentioned in a VLOG, immediately I was intrigued, I am a major quinoa lover, and I knew I needed to try it. Having no clue where to even look for the product I reached out to the company on twitter and asked if they offered samples. They replied and said they did, and would send some out to me. 

They sent me all 3 flavors, vanilla almond raisin, cinnemon banana strawberry, and walnut date agave. I opend each bag and tried them right away, and well, I am in love. At first they reminded me of a nature valley granola bar, I love those too, but stopped eating them because they weren't all that good for me. I tried Eat Keenwa Krunch on its own, and over yogurt, although they were a great substitute for the regular granola, I preferred them on their own . I pop them in a baggie and take them with me for an on the go snack. You could also put them in a bowl, pour some milk over them and have them as cereal. Basically eat them any way you woulda eat granola..  

 Eat Keenwa Krunch retails for 4.99 per bag or 14.95 for a pack of all 3 flavors.

Their website: www.eatkeenwa.com

Note: Eat Keenwa Krunch did send me theses products to try, however all opinions are my own.

October 2013 Goals

I am excited to start doing monthly goals again! I am late with this month, but I figure it is better late then never, right? Haha.. So I taped the goals paper to my closet door, that way it is right there for me to see each day, hopefully that, along with writing about it here on the bloggity help keep me accountable.

So here's why I have chosen the goals I have:

1 30 minute walk per day- I put this on because it's really not fair for me to not take Lucy for a walk each day. She loves it, and so do I, the fresh air is awesome for us, and so is the exercise.

Exercise 3x per week(1 hour minimum)- I used to go gung-ho at the gym 5 days a week for 3 hours a day... Then I got sick, then I got pregnant, then I had a miscarriage. And I haven't been back to the gym since. I would like to be able to get back into the gym, and I've been trying to figure out how I can do that since I don't have a car anymore. Until then, I think I can figure out how to get in my workout at home.

Food journal(and exercise too) everyday- I do so much better eating when I food journal, it's an awesome way to keep me accountable. Hopefully one day soon I can do a video about how I food and exercise journal. 

Vlog everyday- I love vlogging, and this is a good challenge for myself...

Blog 3 days per week- I love writing, I love sharing, Need I say more? 

I got this and I can't wait to come back at the end of the month and tell you all about it! 

Love and hugs,

Sara

Journal Entry From 05/22/2013

Note: I haven't been on to blog in a long while, and while I am going to work on getting back to the grind of it, here is an old entry I wrote and never posted. It was from the day I was baptized. 

Wow, looking through my journal, crazy last 7 months (6 of which I didn't journal) God has done a lot of work in me. 7 months ago to this day I wrote :  "I'll pray about it, maybe my prayers will be answered. I kind of have problems, I don't believe God answers my prayers. Somedays I don't even know if there is a God anymore. I know that this is the time when I need to turn to God the most. Maybe I need to start praying more"

It took 2 months, and an awesome friend coming into my life, and sharing their story, for the wheels to start turning, but 7 months to the day later, here I am, serving an amazing God, who does exist, and loves me so much he sent his son to die for me and my sins.

Today, I was baptized!

Video:   http://youtu.be/LT3lnFmWPBI

Love and hugs,

Sara

Reminiscing of Fatter Days

Watching Louie Anderson the comedian   try to get out of the pool on "Splash" brought me back to my swim team days. That first relay when I didn't have a ladder to use to get me out of the pool and it took 2 people and me trying as hard as we could to get me out if the pool. 

 It felt like a slap in the face, I could have quit that day but I didn't. I don't know if I was ever able to get out on my own, but I do know that I kept swimming and I didn't let my weight and lack of strength stop me.

Yesterday I was at a pool party and I was able to get out of the pool on the side with out the stairs. It was an amazing feeling, but I think I'll use the stairs from now on, I have some really nice cuts on my knees from doing that!

Sometimes you start out thinking that something is impossible, and in the end you learn that it is possible! 

Love and hugs,

Sara

Sad stuff

"I am sorry, but, I don't see anything"

On March 17th 2013, those 8 words changed my life..

Rewind....

February 12th 2013 9:00 pm "Hey babe, I think I should have gotten my period by now, should I take a pregnancy test?" "Yeah."

9:15 pm "Its not going to say "pregnant" its just my body messing with me..."

9:16 pm "OH MY GOD! IT SAYS PREGNANT!" {insert awkward bawling/sobbing}

Our first appointment was on February 21st 2013, I was 5 weeks 6 days (How did I not know I was that pregnant? I found out the first time at 3 weeks 5 days, how did I make it to 5 weeks 1 day this time?)  Our precious baby's heart had just started to beat, so early it could only be seen and not heard. We were to go back in 2 weeks for a repeat ultrasound to check heartbeat.

March 6th 2013 appointment was at 10:30, everything was awesome, baby's heartbeat was 167. we went to lunch with a couple of friends and told them the awesome news. we were home at 12:30 and I was resting in bed. At about 1 pm I felt some wetness and got up to take care of it. I figured it was just the lubricant from the probe. I was wrong. Bright red blood, a lot of it. It was just gushing into the toilet. we called the doctors and they told us to come back. they repeated the ultrasound and said everything was fine, the bleeding is coming from the probe bumping your cervix.

I continued to bleed off and on over the next 10 days, on the 16th I was extremely constipated and needed some relief, I took something that night and finally felt relief, it was very short lived. About 10 minutes later I started having horrible cramps. I took the max dose of Tylenol with no relief. I was in so much pain I was begging my husband to take me to the ER, but he refused. I lay in bed all night, awake with horrible cramps crying, I knew that with the pain and bleeding I was having things weren't going to be alright. At 4 am I passed a large clot. I told my husband that at 6 am we were going to the ER. when we got to the ER I had to wait in triage for about 1/2 an hour, my pain was pretty much gone. when I was finally put in a room, they had me strip down and the doctor came right in. she tried the over the belly ultrasound and didn't see anything, but because I was only 9 weeks 3 days it could have still been a bit to early, so she decided to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound. Before she did that she checked my cervix to be sure it was closed, and also removed "debris". When she completed the ultrasound she said "I am sorry, but, I don't see anything"

This time was supposed to be different, this time I was supposed to walk away in 9 months with a precious baby in my arms. Now I have another huge hole in my heart. I don't know if it is better to have gotten pregnant and had the two losses, or to have never gotten pregnant at all. Sometimes the pain of this hurts so bad I can barely breathe. Every day I fear getting pregnant, I honestly don't think I could go through this again. 

Love and Hugs

Sara

W/o the h

Sorry For My Absence

Hey Bloggy friends, 

I want to take the time to apologize for my absence. I recently had some pretty tough stuff happen, and I needed to take a break from many things. I love writing and I love blogging and vlogging, but I am rather lazy at it. I am trying to become better organized at all this, but sometimes I just hit a block. We all have had that happen, right? Anyways I am getting back into it, later today there will be a post that will explain a lot of why I have been gone. Until then, I leave you with this:

Today I answer this question, and I will also ask it of you!

Love and Hugs,

Sara

w/o the h

Why I Journal

Some of my journals

I have been Journaling off and on for as long as I can remember. I don't know why I started, but these are the reasons I continue;

Journaling provides stress and anxiety relief for me.  I always keep my journal in my purse, when I get stressed, nervous, or anxious I will pull it out and just start writing. When I am sad or otherwise having a hard time, I just start writing. When I am overwhelmed, or happy, I just start writing. (Pretty much, I write for any reason).

Journaling helps me remember things, I don't have the best memory of my youth, however because I kept a journal through some of it,  can look back and see what I was thinking and feeling. That kind of helps jog my memory.

I love that my journal never judges me. I can write the stupidest things, but to my journal, they are nothing but awesome. 

No one reads my journal but me (Unless I let someone, and thus far I haven't) That means I can write the most intimate of details in it if I should choose. I can write things that are only between God and I, my deepest, and possibly darkest secrets.

I have journals for different things. (Currently running 11! EEK!!!) 

None of my journals are perfect, they are me. My journals show my personal and spiritual growth, trials I have been through. They show happy memories, sad memories and everything in between.

Everyone has a story, you owe it to yourself to share it, whether it be a blog, a vlog or a journal!

Love and Hugs,

Sara

How About A Giveaway

I know I haven't posted in a few days, So sorry! I have been feeling under the weather. I said I was planning a giveaway and it is finally here! The give away is for a hand crochet coffee cup sleeve made by me! It should fit any size Starbucks cup. Here is a picture:

  a Rafflecopter giveaway Good Luck! Love and hugs, Sara

Letters To My Former Single Self Link-up Week 4

Question: Describe your first date with your now current partner. Did you feel any "butterflies" on your first couple of encounters? Did you have any indication it would later be the "real deal?"

Dear 18 year old Sara,

The first (few) date with Kevin will be boring. Just dinner. But don't worry they are nice and cozy. You didn't feel butterflies, and you honestly didn't think that this would be the man you would marry. You definitely thought he would be the one to help you out of a not so great situation, and in a way you were right. You thought he was your prince in a way, just not your "forever prince". Don't worry, He ends up being a pretty awesome "forever prince".

The best is yet to come!

Love you,
Your future self

Valentines link up

I decided to join my friend Melissa's Valentines Day Link up. What we are supposed to do was fill in our answers, have our partners give us their answers, compare and then link-up!

Kevin's Answers Sara's Answers/commentary

How long have you been married?
3 years, 7 months, no, wait, 5 years and some-odd months (Really babe, really? lol)
4 years, 10 months, and 2 days
Where was your first date?
In the mall
Narsi's Hof Brau (Which is now closed, Boo!)
Where was your first kiss?
In the mall
Outside of Narsi's, It was a peck on the cheek because I turned my head away.
Who first said, "I love you"?
You
Me! But, That should be no surprise because I pretty much love everyone..
What were your wedding colors?
Purple, black, and white (I asked him why he thought this, and he said its because it was the colors of his suit)
Purple and green
What is her most commonly used phrase?
"Calm yo titties" (I do say this, but only to him, he is spilling my secrets!)
Fo sho
Who is her celebrity crush?
Samuel L Jackson, No, Johnny Depp 
Are we supposed to put ho we think our partners would say, or what it really is... I think my hubby would say Ellen, but really it is probably Channing Tatum, but more honestly, I don't really have a celebrity crush.. That's sad.
If she was ordering drinks for both of you what would you each get?
Minute maid light lemonade for you and diet for me (If we were at McDonalds, then yes. Haha)
Iced tea or water for me and Diet coke or pepsi for him
What is the best meal she has ever cooked you?
Paper chicken
Chicken in paper
What is the worst meal she has ever cooked you?
Anything to tomatoeee or cheesy
Anything to tomatoeee or cheesy
What is the most-played song on her iPod?
We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift
Brokenhearted by Karmin
What would she say is your most annoying habit?
I dont have any
Not listening to me
What is the last thing she does before she goes to bed?
Poke around on her phone
Check my phone
If you could throw out one item of her clothing what would it be?
Purple sweats you're  wearing right now
My sweats, the purple ones
What would you say is your favorite thing about her?
Your outgoingness
Is it really sad that I cant think of one thing? 
What's her go-to drink at Starbucks?
Iced coffee
Iced venti decaf skinny Vanilla Latte with 1 splenda
What's her blog's name?!
Gonna Be A Mom One Day (He gets points here, this is my VLOG's name)
Life A Little Random

Bonus Questions:
Whats her favorite color?
Pink
Pink is awesome!
Does she have any hobbies?
Crafting stitching and bowling
Bowling, Crochet, vlogging and journaling

Enjoy,
Love and Hugs,
Sara

My week in Review 02/04-02/10

Here I am, back for this weeks, "My Week in Review" I haven't decided quite how to do these yet.. I don't always have exciting things happen, I mean, I spent most of this past week fighting a nasty sinus infection. Nothing exciting about that, haha. Anyways, I hope you enjoy, and any insight or suggestions are definitely welcomed!

Monday 02/04- I had dental work today, so I spent quite a bit of the day with the right side of my face being numb. Bowling went well, I got a 165, 185, and a 142. I have gone up 6 pins since January 7th, That makes my average a 136. That is a lot of pressure!

Tuesday 02/05- Well, the sinus infection my body has been trying to fight has hit full blown, ugh. No gym, lots of cleaning, and we got a crazy bill from my ER visit a few weeks ago. I did get my Valentines yarn wreath made, and Taught myself how to crochet a heart.

Wednesday 02/06- Tonight was family night at church and I found out I won the January sponsor giveaway over at A Day in the Life of Me, Go check out her blog!

Thursday 02/07- I'm keeping secrets! Its big! No, not pregnant big, haha, Something else. I promise to share as soon as things are final, hopefully everything works out. I learned to make coffee cup sleeves, I am planning to do a giveaway on my blog(I reached 25 GFC followers over the weekend) and one of these(photo below) bad boys will be the what the winner gets. I think the giveaway will be later this week, so check back later!

Friday 02/08- Its my baby brothers birthday!

 

Saturday 02/09- Went out to lunch at olive garden with the hubster, then we went for a hike. OK, I hiked and he fished, it was a really beautiful day.

Sunday 02/10- Church Day! One of my favorite days of the week! I love Sundays at church because of the fellowship and friendship. Its amazing. We had a meeting after church so I didn't get home until almost 3 pm. Then I needed to clean. I made chicken fried rice and started watching Downtown Abbey... I could quickly become addicted to this show.

How was your week? Anything new and exciting going on?

Love and hugs,

Sara

Go link up:

Letters to my Former Single Self Link-up Week 3

 

 Question:
Over the years, what did you learn you needed in a significant other? What did you learn about yourself?

Dear younger Sara,
It has taken you a long time to know what you truly need in a significant other. You have been married to Kevin for almost 5 years now, and while you know more of what you need now more then all those years ago, you don't necessarily have them. Hopefully one day you will. Here's what you know you need:

• Someone who loves you for you, and does not want to try and change you into someone else.
• Someone who loves God more then they love you.
• Someone who loves you more then they love their mom, or at least just as much.(Basically you DON'T need a mama's boy)
• Someone who has got your back hen you get in an argument with someone, no matter how wrong you might be. (hehe)
• You need a prince, maybe not like "Charming",but you need someone who is going to treat you like a princess.
• You need a partner who is going to remember all the little things that are important to you
• YOU NEED SOMEONE WHO LIKES ONIONS!!!(Haha, Kevin hates onions and you are constantly trying to get him to "like" them or saying "If I ever do this again he will like onions!")
• You need trust
• You need friendship, its not enough to love or be in love with your partner, you need to like them too! (words of wisdom from my friend Melissa)
• You need someone ho will always kiss you goodnight, as long as you are with them, NO MATTER WHAT!
• Going along the same vein, someone who will always kiss you goodbye
• Forgiveness
• Communication
• Words of affirmation (aka, "I love you", "You're pretty, beautiful" etc., "I am proud of you", "You're special")
• Someone who has the same values and beliefs as you do.
• Patience
• Someone who will answer your questions, no matter how stupid.
• Someone who will left you up, not beat you down.

I am sure I could keep going, but this is a good start!

You are so passionate, and you love everyone (this is a blessing, and a curse). you try never to judge anyone and you see everyone else's pain. you have had some really horrible things happen, and its led you to be the kind and loving person you are today. You know that you need and want more out of the relationship you have with Kevin, and you are striving hard to get there. Remember last week, relationships are hard work!

Love you
Your future self!

An Amateur Football Fans Superbowl Commentary

Disclaimer: I do not know very much about football, I have never really followed football. The only football games I have ever been to were in high school and I didn't know the difference between a first down and a touch down. Enjoy my commentary! Oh and I was rooting for the Ravens!

The Sandy Hook Choir kids were so cute! Gave J.Hud a run for her money..
Alicia Keys, ummm... Well she wasn't horrible... The end.
What is this coin toss thing and why do they need "assistance"? I mean, give me a quarter, Ill do it!
Humm, "Two Broke Girls", this is a show I need to watch!
How is Baltimore the visiting team when the Niners are from California and the game is taking place in New Orleans Louisiana
Where is Baltimore?
Never mind I remember (Maryland)
Oh what pretty uniforms the ravens have, purple!
Hey, when did the game start? I totally missed it!
Whats an illegal formation?
I don't get the yard thing, or the first, second, or third thing
Wide outs or white outs? I don't know...
Are they fighting?
Ouch, that looked painful
Is it like soccer? You know you can only run one way with the ball, points for your team, the other way points for their team?
YAY RAVENS!! Touchdown!
Um, "Go Daddy" = No Daddy! Ick, gross!
Ooo I made coffee
Whoa fight! No? No fight, just me trying to make one up in my mind..
Who has the ball? That little brown thing is had to spot... Ohh Kapernick
How many first downs are there?
What does first and goal mean?
Haha, incomplete... Just sayin
Hey, how did the Niners get 3 points?
Loved the Best Buy commercial
Still first quarter?
Humm, what to make for dinner...
Rice, are they talking about Jerry Rice? No, that's baseball, no wait, ohhh Google! Oh Ray Rice, Ravens player and Jerry Rice is a football player.
Hey, its Penny!
So the Niners have the ball now
(13:50, 2nd quarter)
So in pro football you can dance or show pride/happiness? in high school you couldn't do that...
Looks like a lot of doggy piles going on!
Yay Baltimore's ball!
Oh, hey, I just realized how I can tell who has the ball!(The flags on the field)
How many yards they gotta run?
(8 mins 2nd quarter)
Humm, flags, I don't get all this stuff
Doggy pile!
Oh yeah, another Ravens touchdown!
OK that Go Daddy commercial wasn't so bad.
Interception!
Um that's a fight, right? For reals, right?
Um, yep yep.
Dang dudes its just a game, sure you get  ring and a trophy, but still!
(6 mins 2nd quarter)
What are these "first downs" they keep talking about?
Oh, almost intercepted
Aw man, overshot it, and now undershot! lol
Not sure how I am feeling about Beyonce.
How do you know who the offence is and who the defense is?
Wait Niners are defence because they are protecting their side?
Love the Coca Cola commercial.
I still need to figure out dinner.
Yo, Jared,  congrats Brah! Lol, that's how the cool people say it right?
Haha I just screamed so loud at the TV, good thing Kevin's not here, he might have freaked a bit
(20 sec, 2nd quarter)
Is it 1/2 time yet?
"Golden Boy" might be a good show.
Did that "Under the Ledge" commercial remind any one else of "The Hunger Games" or just me
Geezola, took forever to get to the 1/2 time show
Is it me, or does Beyonce sound a bit naisaly?
Is that Destiny's Child?
OK just a tad disappointed in the 1/2 time show...
Halo was the best!
Sounds like Oprah
Awe, another cute little kidlet
Haha, "Two Broke Girls", I need to watch this show!
OMGEE screaming to the TV, 108 yards in 11 seconds? That's crazy talk
Did the power just go out?
Haha, the Blackberry, rubber duckies commercial was AWESOME
The Superdome, that's where the people hunkered down during Katrina?
Haha Honey Boo Boo's mom at the prom!
Just imagine how many  toilets are being flushed around the u.s. right this second...
Yay, finally the game is about to start again
Started as a Niner ball, now a Ravens ball
(10 min, 3rd quarter)
Hey, that was Kris Humphries!
Hey, the blind guy, whats his name,  not James Brown, errr, Stevie Wonder!
Niner ball
(9 min, 3rd quarter)
Heckyeah, missed it, ha, Niners are just getting all stopped up
Haha "man bands to boy bands, we gotta change that back" commercial
Kapernick looks confused.
NO! Niners got their first touchdown!
Loved the Psy-pistachio commercial
(3 min 3rd quarter)
Ouch that looked painful
Dang, talk about a turn around
Leon sandcastle haha, good one
Untangling fishing line while watching the Superbowl
Oh jack in the box commercial is pretty funny
Yeah ravens! At first and goal this game is getting close!
Lots of screaming going on in my house!
My hubby says if he was a football payer, and someone asked him what his job was, he would say "I catch the ball, and I run with it... I, Catch the ball, and, I, Run with it..."
Who's the Ravens kicker-punter dude, he looks like a little boy.
Dodge commercial, LAME!
Doggy pile!
Blue 42 Blue 42
Tied, NOOOO!
Babylandia! Hahahaha
Another fast and furious?
Oh good, not tied..
What are these first downs?
SF seems to be getting a lot of fouls.
Miracle Montana stain, hilarious!
(5 mins, 4th quarter)
Good thing I have acrylic nails on otherwise my fingers would be bleeding!
(2 min 4th quarter)
Love that Samsung Galaxy commercial.
Haha I love this thanks for missing it! so much pressure!
I think I need to become a foot ball fan, this yelling at the TV thing is a lot of fun.
Seriously, 11 seconds left and your going to call a timeout? Really?
Good luck Ravens, fair catch, free kick!
Heck yeah RAVENS WIN!!!

If you made it all the way through this, you are awesome, pat yourself on the back!

Love and Hugs,
Sara

My Week in Review 1/28-2/3

I have wanted to start doing a "My Week in Review" series since I started my blog. I even started writing important and exciting things down, then, I totally forgot... Today I am going to do it though, from memory!

Monday's are probably my favorite day of the week, well besides Wednesdays and Sundays.(Who am I kidding, I like everyday of the week! I'm odd I know...) So Monday 1/28 I found out that I won a 100$ Target gift card from A Night Owl! I went to a new class at the gym, although I didn't like it much so I don't think I will be going back. Its called "core, cross training, and more, it didn't really get my heart rate going enough though.. After that I had a wow moment where I realized how much I have changed from a year ago.  Then I went bowling! Bowling was pretty good, I managed to keep my average. Oh, and I joined VINE..

Tuesday 1/29 started off at the gym, it was the first time I got to use my new Polar FT4 heart rate monitor(I plan to do a review on this sometime soon) I went to a Youth for Christ club meeting at a local high school. While I was there my pastor asked me what I was afraid of, I had a hard time coming up with something. To be truthful, I am not really afraid of anything. Maybe bugs... Spiders...

Wednesday 1/30 Bootcamp class is my favorite, then family night at church! I love family night, its a lot more relaxed then Sundays(Sunday's are really relaxed too though). I cant really remember anything specific that stands out for that day but it was a good day.

Thursday 1/31 I went to the same class I take on Tuesdays, then on my way home I found a dog! He was so cute. he is now back home with his owners. After the whole "finding a dog" fiasco was over with I participated in the federal homeless count. It was very interesting to say the least.

Friday 1/1 and Saturday 1/2 Nothing significant happened these days.

Sunday 1/3 Well, the Ravens won the Super bowl, I don't think there is much more to say! Congrats Ravens!  Great work Niner's!

Now some pictures for your enjoyment!

Love and Hugs,

Sara

Letters to My Former Single Self Link-up Week 2

What did you think of dating and marriage before you met "the one"?

Dear 18 year old Sara,

Soon you will be meeting Kevin, the man you will marry. Right now what you think about dating is that you would love to be dating anyone(well maybe not anyone...) You just want to know what it feels like, looks like, is like to be dating someone. I mean, sure, there was Anthony, but you two never really "dated", just hung out. You thought marriage was all roses and daisies (to bad its not), you didn't know how much work a marriage would be. You wanted to be married, maybe  because you wanted someone to take care of, or maybe because you thought it would solve all your problems. A lot because being a wife and a mother was your biggest dream.

Love your future self!

Sorry this one is so short, but sometimes that's how the best things are!

Love and Hugs,
Sara

Poetry From Yester-years

I have been going through all my old "memory" boxes for a blog post that I am working on. As I was going through all of them I found quite a bit of poetry. I figured I would share a couple poems with you, enjoy!

Someone Once Told Me (2003)

someone once told me to write from my heart, I already did.

Someone once told me never to do drugs, I never did.

Someone once told me never to argue, I said that was my best subject. 

Someone once told me not to push my luck, I already had.

But once, someone told me I was stupid, and no one wanted me because I was adopted, I just cried.

Like Him (2003)

I wish I could write like him.

I wish I had the passion to see how he sees.

I wish I had the courage to act the way he does.

I wish I were brave enough to ask like him.

I wish I could feel pain and sorrow the way he does.

Is it fair that he could be so perfect when I have so many flaws?

Love and Hugs,

Sara

OK, I Admit It!

So I keep seeing these "OK, I Admit It" posts, and I decided I wanted to do one too! Here I go:

OK, I admit it, I have a serious love affair with prunes. They are awesome!

OK, I admit it, I ask a lot of questions, they are never stupid though, I actually really want to know the answer..

OK, I admit it, I am sorry for everything. Things that aren't my fault, things that are my fault, everything!

Conversations sometimes go like this:

"Oh, Kevin, what happened?"  

"I fell and broke my spleen."

"I'm so sorry"

"Why are you sorry, you didn't break it?"

"I just am"

Haha... Yes... I am sorry about everything! 

OK, I admit it, I have become a major chocoholic. It is an addiction that I am working on!

OK, I admit it, every time I make coffee I mix the grounds in. It doesn't matter what I do to try and not get grounds in the coffee, it still happens.... Always!

Letters to my Former Single Self

This weeks Question:

What did you think about dating and relationships when you were little?  

What do you think of them now?

Dear Adolescent/teenage Sara,

Its me, well, you, from the future! 

When you were really really young, maybe around 5 you always figured relationships were like the movies, the prince would come and pull you onto the back of his horsey and you would ride off into the sunset! 

Do you remember your first crush? Of course you remember Justin, you could never, and will never forget him. Remember all the plans you had for your lives? You both were going to move to Japan and he was going to be a martial arts instructor? You both were so cute in your innocent years. I'm sorry things fell apart between you both a few years ago, but trust me, even though you are still hurting it was for the best, don't hold a grudge! 

I was reading through some of our old journal entries the other day, I saw a lot of entries that read something like this "I really wonder if Josh likes me" or "Zach is so nice, I wouldn't deserve to have a boyfriend like him because I'm such a B**** to every one!" (which is true you are, but, you have a lot of barriers and walls up because you have been hurt by so many people).  You didn't know much about relationships or dating, you didn't even know what someone did on a date. Yes, you saw the people holding hands and kissing at school, and that's what you thought a relationship and dating someone was, just hanging out with someone of the opposite sex and holding hands and kissing.  

Your first real boyfriend Anthony, well, he was awesome, he also broke your heart, ha ha, sad story. I'm sorry I'm making fun of you, I should be nicer... No, never mind, its who we are.. Anyways, he was the one who taught you how relationships should be, he did a terrible job, sorry about that. 

Over the years since Anthony, I have gained valuable information on relationships and dating. Remember that everything happens for a reason and to never stop loving yourself! Here's some advice:

Take time to "date" don't rush into a relationship, there is no need to rush into anything! The guy that god has for you will wait and treat you right.

You know mom and dads "No dating until you are 16 rule"? Listen to it, its a really good rule!

Don't let boys get in the way of school, you can't get high school back!

Pray (I know you don't really believe in God right now, but seek him anyways) for your future dates, and relationships. Pray for yourself and for your future husband. Philippians 4:6 says Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell god what you need and thank him for all he has done. So do just that!

Be true to yourself, if you cant be you with the person whom you are with then they are not the right person for you. If they have nothing in common with you, then they probably are not the person for you. 

Its OK to say "Goodbye, its over"!

Don't look for someone to rescue you, you rescue yourself!

Relationships are hard work, but so worth it!

Lastly, you are amazing, sweet, kind, beautiful, and funny. Your smile is so infectious, show off that dimple! Never settle for anyone who dulls your sparkle, you are worth so, so, so much more then that!

I love you,

Your 26 year old self!

I hope many of you are doing this link up also! I cant wait to see what others have said!

Love and Hugs,

Sara

Love/Hate Relationships

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5 things I love currently:

1. Crocheting and Yarn- this has become a major addiction lately! Like way worse then before, Its so bad I need to organize my yarn closet... Yes, my yarn stash has its own closet!

2. Fox's Tuesday night line up Raising Hope, Ben and Kate, New Girl, and The Mindy Project.

3. God.. I love God, I have this relationship with him now that I have never had before. I owe it all to a good friend of mine, I can never thank him enough(you know who you are, thank you if you ever read this). Before I was just going through the motions, now I know Him, its amazing, He's amazing, I could go on for paragraphs, I will spare you though.

4. Blogging. In a recent devotion I posted on my church's Facebook page I said "I want to inspire people, I want to be the reason someone starts something, doesn't give up, or makes a change. I want to make people smile and laugh. I want to impact people's lives! "  And through this Blog I am doing just that!

5. Journaling! Every type, I have about 10 journals going right now, all are for different things, well except for 3 but that's a long story. I will have a post coming up about all my journaling in the next few weeks..

5 things that I hate:

1. My recent love-affair with sweets. I could probably drop a bunch of weight if I could just lay off doe a bit.

2. That my I-Pizzle (ipod, I nicknamed him. I am odd I do realize this) is broke-dizzle! Haha, OK I will stop that!

3. That my baby sister is homeless, please pray for her, she is super lost.

4. That one human being can be so hurtful, horrid, or cruel to another. It just saddens me to no end...

5. Talk radio. Lets just say, I gagged in my car today because of the nasty-ness I heard this morning!

Share! What is on your list?

Love and Hugs,

Sara

Being Bullied

There has been a lot of talk about people being bullied lately. I have seen numerous articles and newscasts regarding bullying. Teenagers who have ignored it, teenagers who killed themselves because of it, teenagers who are fighting back against it. I fear though that people think that bullying is "new", this is definitely is not true, it is just getting more media attention now then it has in the past. I graduated from high school about 9 years ago, bullying was just as present then as it is now. Maybe more present because it wasn't as known about as it is now. I know this, because, I was a victim, I was bullied every single school day of my 4 years in high school. I hated high school, I didn't want to go because when I did I suffered. 

My freshman year of high school I was nominated for homecoming court as a joke. This was the first and only time I "fought back" against the bullying. I participated in everything the homecoming court nominees do, the rally's and spirit week stuff. I wasn't going to let "them" get to me. I got a pretty skirt and shirt to wear, and I wore my smile proudly. I knew I wouldn't win, but I didn't let anyone get me down. I loved it. My neighbor's daughter Kristin did my makeup for the day, and I remember feeling pretty special. 

I don't really remember what changed, but I lost that "fight" I had shortly after homecoming. 

Before school, breaks, and lunches were spent "hiding" in classrooms. I would do homework or just sit there bored because that was better then leaving the room and hearing my peers poke fun at me. I would often hear; "Boom, Boom, Boom", "Whale", "Earthquake!", or "MOOO" when I walked by. There were three people who stick out in my brain, they treated me the worst, the two boys "C" and "J" and one girl "E".  In Jr year a mutual friend of "E" and mine moved back from another state, "E" tried to convince her to be mean to me, thankfully my friend said "No, shes never done anything mean to me" and wouldn't join in on the bullying.

Because of the bullying I didn't go to my junior or senior proms, I never went to clubs, I never went to the mall, and I didn't take class trips (excluding a band/choir trip). I grew thick skin(yet weak all the same) and I offended people, I let people "use" me, and I tried way to hard, I overcompensated. 

The bullying I received in high school has had lasting effects, difficulty making friends, depression, anxiety.

 I still get used, and I still offend people even though I try my hardest not to. I am no longer the depressed individual I used to be, but I am still very damaged.  

If I could tell someone being bullied anything, it would be "You are not alone, I love you and I am here for you, it doesn't have to be this way!" I would encourage them to speak with an adult about it. I would encourage them to fight back, not with mean words or weapons, but with a smile on your face.

Love and Hugs,

Even through the tough stuff,

Sara

Random thoughts of the week

Welcome to Sara's Random Thoughts of the Week, I was thinking of doing this weekly, but maybe thats to much. Anyways, it's just a collection of random thoughts that I felt like sharing yet didn't want to bog Facebook down with.

• I'm fasting Starbucks, and dining out for 10 more days. I contemplated going to panama red for an iced coffee this morning. The more I think about it though, I kinda realize I'm fasting Starbucks, I gave that up for God, and if I am replacing it with Panama Red I am not truly fasting. At least in the case of Starbucks/panama red.

• So, sad random fact about me: I always have food in my purse, currently I have prunes, trail mix bars, pistachios, a Lara bar, a banana and applesauce. You never know when you(or someone else) might need to eat.

• 3 things, I think I am wearing men's socks, I was to lazy to wash my hair so I put it in a 2 layer ponytail and pinned my bangs back, and I am wearing the same clothes I wore last night(new underpants of course though) because I only wore them for a few hours and they were still clean.

Haha, Hope you totally enjoyed that and got a good laugh in!

Love and Hugs,

Sara

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Wow! 15 Followers

Hey guys and gals! 

I just noticed that there are 15 of you following my blog! 

That's amazing! I started this blog for me, and the fact that there are 15 of you out there reading the totally random things that come out of my brain, well, its awesome! I hope you all continue to follow my blog.

Lets celebrate with 15 random things that happened to me today...

1. My dog threw up all over me/the floor (thank goodness she missed the bed) at 2 this am.

2. I had a doctors appointment (clean bill of health YAY)

3. My doctor ordered me a blood serum pregnancy test (No, I didn't get it done. No, I am not pregnant)

4. I went to the store to get tomato sauce today.

5. While at the store I dropped tomato sauce on myself. (short people problems)

6. I cooked chili for my church's family night

7. I dance bombed Arthur ((the youth pastor at my church) I am pretty sure he had no idea)

8. I didn't eat the turkey chili I cooked for everyone else. I had chicken tikka masala that I made.

Wow, coming up with 15 things seems kinda tough..

9. I put on a pair of pants that I bought over the summer thinking they still wouldn't fit. Well they do.

10. I had bacon and cookies for desert

11. I drank a chia seed drink.(these are so yummy, you should drink one too.)

12. I wrote a post about praying for our pastors and posted it on my churches facebook page

13. I opened a blog lovin account (technically I may have done this yesterday)

14. I hacked someones Facebook, well sorta... (they think I am awesome! lol)

15. I reached 15 GFC Followers!

Enjoy!

Love and Hugs,

Sara